“I know that pain is the most important thing in the universes. Greater than survival, greater than love, greater even than the beauty it brings about. For without pain, there can be no pleasure. Without sadness, there can be no happiness. Without misery there can be no beauty. And without these, life is endless, hopeless, doomed and damned.
Adult. You have become adult.”
― Harlan Ellison, Paingod and Other Delusions
Perhaps this is why we have the occasional reprieve with the most glorious highs. When you battle with the deepest lows, become accustomed to the darkness, the occasional glimpse of light is like a beacon in the night. It's the spark that fires our hearts and keeps us going. Experiencing the lowest lows, we can appreciate the highest highs. But it doesn't stay there does it? Knowing how amazing the good can feel, it makes the fall that much further the next time we spiral down. Up and down, up and down. Breaking the cycle, maybe settling for some lower highs, but also achieving some higher lows. Life is never 100% even, but my hope is that it can be better more often than not. For the first time ever, I'm starting to actually experience that.