Hello Dear Readers,
|Some just take the scenic route to find themselves.|
I’ve been gone for a long while. For this I deeply apologize. For a long while I didn’t feel I could write. I didn’t feel I had anything left to write about. My therapy and my medication and my personal life was so streamlined, in most areas, that I didn’t really have much to deal with. My therapist has been exceptionally proud of me. What I did have to deal with I haven’t felt capable of discussing because I did not want to violate the trust of people I value.
I’d been researching more and feeling less traumatized. So little I really felt like almost a fraud for writing about Borderline, which I know is silly, because the point of being in therapy is to heal so you specifically don’t feel so traumatized and learn to cope constructively. Which is exactly what I was doing.
Someone had also made me very paranoid about my writing. So paranoid that I wasn’t sure I could continue to be open about myself. This has been incredibly detrimental to my healing process. What I realized though, was that the problem was ultimately not about me, it was about them. I need to do what is healthy for me. What is healthy for me, is to continue writing and to continue to research, because I do still have a lot to say and lot to contribute.
Things have taken a decided down turn as of late. This happens. I will update a lot. I will be bringing a lot of new therapeutic techniques to the table.
I’m sorry I needed some time to get my head together and regroup. I’ve missed you. I am back now.